I am taking photos off my cell so this is from January pics: what is that in my ear?:
Thursday Feb 1: Fenbendazole. Doctor day...Respiratory Specialist--- not well but still plugging away...
scale is less at home- 249 at home...Walmart is...but much better than 270-286 range...I am doing the work to get it off but that blow to my ab and liver July 2022 did a number on me:
thank you Mom...the camping moo moo arrived:
resting:
2: Fenbendazole.
FAKE:
made RR some jello and Chile Mac n Cheese for his weekend fun:
Spending time listening to music for senior cats (2001 for stray cat Harry- this cat was a stray when we moved into our home... he would play with our cat that was dying from that China tainted food back in the day...he was just a visiting cat--once the owner moved away and abandoned him, he adopted our backyard and in his senior years with dementia, he just walks the yard when I do, and we listen to soothing music for senior cats.)
3: Fenbendazole.
This week I peeked to see if our blog has been compromised with all the security and shadow banning I figured I better look and I have a "different" browser so these three are not me...and I really do not have the energy, proper health and etc. to go to each page/post and figure what has been edited or added in so to me this blog may possibly have been altered by an external area and always come to me if you are reading something and it does not sound like me or our contributing authors. What a shame if the posts have been touched. Just shows you people cannot allow me MY SPACE to share my testimony and others.
I also will refrain from falling from these SPAM Wix Alert emails...give it up...
People were reaching me on what is happening here-- Appx a year ago Wyatt and Lacey B got the old Rome Glover WME property and they recently grubbed it- there is no permits, planning or water at this time filed just grubbed land. Right across from the Fire Dept is the DOLLAR GENERAL market store location soon to be in the works to be built.
I also found this to be enlightening:
So, Karel was one of the investigators assigned and I know the why and how comes back channel to the fire I almost died on...he now belongs to an industry Tex Harold Eldon Gilligan (Sonny) worked so hard to educate the world on-- still barely any progress there in over ten years and Yarnell would have been the "ideal" case studies but no one of authority touched it...I sometimes wonder how the world is more concerned on Taylor Swift then real areas that need a looking at...I mean think about Snowden in 2013--- it happened the same time my fire did but I did not get really aware of it until years later...that was because I had almost died on a fire and I was unaware of anything but helping the people then helping Sonny's health and my own then going to the Wildland Fire academies...so yeah looking back it is interesting to see KAREL tied to SLURRY DROP company as a liaison.
No ladies group for me today---how to explain why---just want to be near my current best bud- the throne...I also have to ice my inflammation areas at 9-9:30 today. Fenbendazole does have its side effects...
Some are gathering data to create a narrative on me again for the fire related area --- they have been doing it for over a decade+ --- always fishing and examining my comments, public areas, and even private areas to create a negative. They attempt to create false stories and create to attempt to set me up with wordsmithing and etc.--- it is really a waste of their time. I considered their agendas as they have tried to create legal actions on me..and tried to get me arrested...and the possible cyber bullying we all witnessed. It is their rubbish. They can talk sh#! all day long--- I am too busy --- they gotta dig dig dig...God is watching. I will keep moving forward doing my best to heal the mind, body, and soul. I refuse to be a part of any external areas that thrive on negativity and I will keep placing out the documents...
down by the lake--- just a neat wish...
Our little "Clint Eastwood" looking good:
4: right ear:
left ear:
RR. 41023 c arrived. I am really groggy today. Won't be online much due to bandwidth issues.
FAKE EMAILS STILL COMING IN:
5: Ladies Time at TG's 10-3pm. Enjoyed the salmon and conversation.
facial break out:
6: Keep getting these fake emails.
Helping FJS on land stuff (7:40am) since he is focused on bigger projects- it is just $15.99mo.
7: Workout with ladies and art class day. Fenbendazole day one for this week. May pause after today because blood work is next week.
8: last public view of land images:
9: Spoke with ML/FS about AES.
10: RR> tire cereal bowl and cup and wrench spoon and fork. Prayer for CA-S. RR shared to me images he took of the snow:
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Sound Bath 6pm. Karen, Reed, TG, Claudia, Patti, Kas and Margaret. Spoke with ML/FS about AES.
11: RR> Water filled. Taco Bell day. blocked KL after a text that her words did not match me and I am fighting off this infection--- you want to spew out information then get the facts right. Amen.
12: solid growth on top of head:
worked on surveillance cameras...then went to Toni's
All day at Toni's with Martie and Karen...good day...ear issues with very high temps...we all detoxed.
13: still ear pain--- high temps too...
Any person who digs up "fake" dirt--- they be sickos but they are out there, folks. Remember, there is a GRAND FINALE with God...stop the trashing...you better to save face right now...All those who betted on all this...God is in control. It is the Grand Finale--- the turning point...Beautiful for those who did not trash talk and create and orchestrate enemies towards me...but feel bad for you all who did or had ill intent or did the works for the Devil. Whomever was a part of it ... I am praying for you to see God's plan...there is no playing dumb especially when you all were big hitters in this all. I was to place out what God needed...no face, no case. If you cannot pinpoint with true pure documented facts...go away---let it go and let God.
Looking at me the past few years and Carol and Dr A is right---much deterioration...let's look back:
text to KL..
2020:
2021:
KL/MM/TG and me having discussions...I do not want to go to FL with things still pending that others need to handle---if it is not, I will go to Florida but stay in another area near airport- I will not go for this fun trip to turn it into an intervention towards another...handle it before..please.
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One of my favorite spots in Arizona besides Healthy Habits store:
since I was young, I always felt I would one day own this home in Phnx off Northern:
According to the recent experimental research, uranium can enter the brain after exposure and cause neurobehavioral problems such as elevated motion related activity, disruption of the sleep-wake cycle.
let us look at abnormal areas:
15: I have hemochromatosis so not a shock but MD can peak at results soon...
16: Sonny stopped by for 10 minutes...
look forward to my hair being longer so I can do this:
skin issues still happening:
praying this remains in healing not Dr Leroy or Chief Anderson's paths-- I rebuke it in the name of the Lord these growths and markings...I need your healing God...in Yeshua/Jesus's name.
I enjoy this candy- got it for my trip for the ladies :)
soon, Johnny G...soon
yeah, haircut soon :)
17: RR.
Ladies Group 8:30am
then to Karen's until appx 5pm
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RR- rest
huh? Fred in Russia?
bilaterally my legs swelled up and were purplish black so did detox bath:
19: meltdown for me- cancelled a Florida trip this week- [heart concerns, 179 at resting pulse rate ???- I wish people could be more bold and instead of telling me for so long that I am just done done with it ...just go to the person and deal with it instead I gotta cancel a trip so three others can go and one will refrain from bogus intervention hopefully]
my sleeping is bad in recent times- I am in bed the full time just not in sleep state...
20: BIG DAY. Johnny G, haircut: YEAHHH!!!
thank you for what you did Johnny G :)
BEFORE:
AFTER: I did not color it but by his sculpting it--- it gives the illusion he did...I wonder if he used a colored glaze or gloss shampoo though ??? Very appreciative...
sneezing as I take pic:
Superstitions :)
John wants this home by my doctor's office:
PCP, German Rest.,
closure hour with FJS.
21: art class 10am-- I made homemade stuff and made yummy snacks and went with love.
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one of the top reasons I cut off from the group was the topic of New Age / Tarot has been in recent discussions- I refrain from allowing that to my space but I had listened to the newer to group person but I had to cease it- I had heard a little of it back in 2021/2022 with MC when doing Tuning Forks phase as an accessory to DP's massages. I listened and was respectful. It is just not my thing. I listened but do not want it in my 2024 at all.
shit, I get enough on the aftermath of YHF 13' and people's fake projection(s) of what they thought of me...no interest for me that topic. God just places on my heart what next.
TG doesn't like to talk politics and religion and for me I don't like the seance tarot stuff but seems they are honored for their wishes and I was not plus enough on any talk on death beds or if I died today- this is what I did for them but not shown the same back--- stop the BS- it is a strict no for my life. Gets you cut out super fast out of my life those topics being disrespected. When BM mentioned it in 2021- by April 2022 it ended up just appearing on my cell just because someone talked on it near my cell July 2021 is plain nuts. I heard key points and it is just not my areas--- in recent times even AMAZON had suggested items and I never typed that...on YouTube history--- I know I looked up some meditation words or someone had mentioned the word karma then that began to be on there. I do know it is out out of my life. That can be their tools to life but mine is living in truth and not use tools like that...I stick to truth telling...looks like a regular deck of cards but it is not...I found it clever if I was to ever think to delve into the area---they even have regular cards but they are also tarot---but I will let the World know if that time ever took place but sooooo doubt it:
Remember, they project and assume and create ill perceptions but I show documentation that leads to a conclusion(s).
this week's topics (snippet below) --- no more for my life---you all had an opportunity to fix it since Oct 2022 instead TG tells two who paid for their tickets days before their trip to get their own room. ??? Once Wed. hit at 9:33am and I heard TG telling me she was confused [ that was telling to me so I called her before art class ] and I knew in prayer she threw me under the bus...why tell two people it is based on me after all you said negatively back channel about them and just own it, please. So coward like. I was done done. Now for KL, you see MC in history never forced that topic 'tarot' my way but I have heard it too many times since Thanksgiving 2023 and I just knew I had to release myself out of this locals ladies group- I would like individualism/ non GroupThink folks--- God fearing brave souls near me. A family member reached out and told me how is ladies group because of FB timeline reports every 2-3 hours on MPP- she went to click share and I do not have any social media. Days later she reported they deleted all the messages. I explained NO--- they paused or blocked you because you are related to me. That sounds more like it. I am sure more than likely the same was done to MM. I found some manners to be too coward in this local group which my documentation can confirm such. This week I saw misperceptions and projecting that I was done done and I huffed and cussed--- more than likely the cussin because of lack of sleep as I have shown the documents here but what's their excuse for over a year coming to me talking about another in the group vs. just going direct to the person --- I did tell one that for her it is a waste of time because of the wrong perception the one has for that person so why waste the energy...
see MPP---74%+ of that call was not me but see what was said...I spoke in the Light..I am TRUTH:
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This is a medical audio snippet of the topics we went over before I left for good that the person who was offended in the matter was given the opportunity to "hear" how negative in tone she is talked about and I was just tired of hearing it but she did not want to hear it ---
the political part was the other two--I lay quiet there---this was a FATE day- God ended my time with ladies group as I brought to the surface T R U T H...I did puff up when a few times this week some act like they are okay to speak like I am already gone. Or talk about "death bed" stuff- they over-stepped so I cut two out--- one stayed for the class based on she does not have all the data just two ladies spewing their perceptions but when TG said she was ignorant to my health- that was a total buffaloed moment and I own the records to prove she knew my life/health all along.
Also, TG told three people that she cut out KP/MPP for our trip and I said why and she said for me--- and all I wanted was to address their issues not mine because TG stated she planned to target an intervention on the supposed fun trip ????
and I was not about to go on a trip in a different state with these issues others came to me--- I just brought it to the front "their" issues.
I said I would be the one to bail out of the trip so all them can go do their intervention bs...I did that but TG ended up Tuesday telling the one "because of me, those two need to get another room" and I was floored because come Wed. art class I came with love, happiness and goodies and when I saw the two falling back to what they did Monday during this art time--- I was like that is just BS so I said "bye Felicia"
[feel free and listen to my huffed up pissed voice audio recording if ya want--- I had every right to be when TG told MPP what she did laying her reasons that she did it for me to preserve the individual relationships...not fully comprehending that LCH told MPP she wasn't going if they weren't so now that is 3 purchased tickets to my ticket that had insurance on it so why would you do that to me---
I mean, I have enough on my plate and thank you ladies I do not need a reminder of all on my plate--- OWN and TAKE ACCOUNTABILTY that all this rubbish cores from you all back chattering versus going direct to the person- I did and I spoke facts and truths only to MPP]
and I went right to MPP and learned TG was telling one this and another that so I cut out the right ones, and one is like I did not do anything to you but I asked her Monday to refrain from her input on medical when she knows zip to my current or past on topic and she can tell me until we are blue in the face about the stage 4 cancer folks to her life...
I have not welcomed her into my space there to feel such freedom to her takeaways of how I helped her so just know that if you die as she went on and on...blah blah blah...I have a lot on my plate that this is all rubbish ...
move on ... away from their projected bs.
I am not self centered as I heard someone tell someone this week--- I gave this more effort to fix it then any of them even I went to the person direct...I just did not want to spend almost a grand or more on a trip that would turn into some silly intervention for another on petty shit...that was why I cancelled plus medical.
This is just a day in the journal pages but a day like this will not happen again because I removed this energy from my daily. I want it to be known--- I want strong brave true to self and others people near me not gossip/chit chat say one thing to this person and another to this one...you can project your takeaways all day long to help you "feel" a certain way but I asked for a group discussion before heading out and when MPP agreed to it, the others bailed just because at 1:12:11 of a 3:14:54 visiting events into that visit out of the blue my medical is brought up ?? they never ask much on that in prior visits so I watch the two ladies as they spoke...I share...they want to know why I am not a candidate---I guess they do not read the journals and watch my medical sharing so I explained...one says why not local anesthesia and I guess they do not understand the seriousness of my medical .... I did tell the ladies Monday and through this week I was lacking sleep, see:
I am truth. I provided above documentation of my irritability and frustrations due to medical and lack of sleep yet recap I apologized and again apologize here for my medical condition and sleep disorders but that does not give you the right to use me as a scape goat and allow MPP/KP/LCH to think it was solely on me why you made that decision to rule two out on staying with you in FL. They put out monies too, you know. I listened to the recordings, you for sure are guilty of appeasing - especially when MPP stated you and her were fine when you left her but MM, KL, and myself heard differently. So, it is about ownership of words - for they matter.
This word best represents Wed. for me:
22: scale broke ???
God is using me for some Grand thing.
23: Heading out to medical appointment. Gift for RR:
another gift for RR...the griddle and more food:
24: RR day 8-5pm--- RV day,TB-box,
felt yucky but still did appx 16 hours of hard labor/hike for this weekend to keep with the motto- keep moving...even when feeling unwell and on antibiotics yet again...
terrible sleep
25:RR day--- RV day...began cooking up some old nostalgia mac n cheese with burger and Southwestern chiles:
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23andMe said I am Irish--- well have they seen me sleep deprived ;) I would for sure say YES to that...very Irish ;)
Guys are so cool--- I am cleaning the garage looking for two DVDs for RR and I came across the VCR of LG/TG and plant/light and John went to get the mail so I said can ya drop it off and him and LG spoke and saw another 21 seconds and why can't being a woman to woman be just so chill like that .... ???? I love how guys just get it done and are cordial. Thank you, SB for what you shared - meant alot to me... only have love ...these were the cards KL gave me that have to go --- I really think people think they can just disrespect--- but I grew boundaries for 2024 ;) bye...I am all for working areas out--- but when I am stronger ...not while I am sleep deprived and unwell. Bye gift:
Laundry day
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Tax Day...Still doing antibiotics--- been kicking my butt and I slept in new area and still bad sleep-- try a new area again tonight--- I need some immediate help on sleep...
I have the best mother-in-law: I love looking up old lyrics for her --- yet, this seems more like a Cummings poem, ??? does anyone know the artist to these lyrics:
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fraud:
29: rest...still on antibiotics...
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