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End of May- June "Junk" Journaling 2024

Writer's picture: JOY A COLLURAJOY A COLLURA


Summertime is arriving soon...


My health has deteriorated a lot,

and some will look at my images in 2022-2024

junk journaling posts

and go

no way- that's not Joy,

but it is...

I am alive

even though ya attempted to take my life

how many times???...

I do my walks and swim/polar plunges

and doing what I can to get back to me...

but the fluid retention is off the charts.

I look in the mirror

and I don't even recognize myself.

The CPAP has its downside on what it is does

to my ears, nose, throat, stomach.

I am still -for my family- gonna share the images

so, they can see when it shifted...

I have no clue when my last day of breath is,

but I am gonna keep being me

and keep fighting the good fight...

no matter how rough or tough it gets to see the images ;)

I have two brain tumors

and so much I have shown

on the junk journaling of all my health issues

that I hope it helps my family

that even if you do things 100-

that it doesn't matter...

I have bad genetics both

maternally and paternally.

A lot of our family already died...

Yet, I kept going and I almost always wear a smile no matter how much the pain...


Happy Summer 2024!

Cole caught on property surveillance chasing a lizard and snake...the snapshot images caught snake in yard but not the video...

May 20:Fenben off

Cole and Mae West:

Backyard birds about to fledge with Momma nearby

watering areas - keeping it moist --- dry season as my berries are usually plumper on the gray thorn desert bush ... I keep dreaming [premonition-like] that my town is gonna see a ridiculous / bogus wildfire this Summer 2024 and that D. Willis will be on that fire and Shumate. Hope not. I hope it stays "just" a dream. I still think our desert as I have pioneered it---it does not need added acreage burned to my town to meet some ??? possible acreage burn per season for those fire folks when historically the stuff that has been done to our soils around here that should awaken EPA folks especially when RR documented as well as me something being dropped over by the old tailing area on the Date Creek Rd by Rockhill Rd. area...Come on, EPA...

watering my walking desert path:

I have all my surveillance cameras on snapshot and video settings aimed on the ground and all around even you copters that keep coming passing my property and it is catching something else only when you pass my place- caught on camera since March 2024--- even the person who recently passed on reported you over there under radar---and documented over by the old tailing area on the Date Creek Rd by Rockhill Rd. area...all we can do is document it publicly. Who or what are you? When the under-radar copter went by- something like a drone like thing was near the copter...???


May 21:FENBEN PHASE TWO 1

Fenben off Happy Bday MM.

HACKED AGAIN-

the walking does help the fluid retention but at times the head pain is way too much...and the fluid retention and lymphatic congestion is off the charts-

where are my pupils ??? weird.


extreme pain...draining areas currently besides legs/back/chest/abs/hips/buttocks:

current hair growing out, many hues, Mom:



welts on my back and back of legs-

shadow ban still...

this oddly came on side timeline as an ad...I told Layn July 2022 and he said it was delayed for the bricks yet I still think if I drop out July 2022 of being a Lifetime WFF member then in 2024 I should have got my brick snail mailed to me or refunded as I requested one of the two- if they felt I was making my way to WFF because they alleged I had history to harass WFs then why have my paid brick there - right!? ??? so if the brick was already being made with my name on it then I would like the brick snail mailed or the refund... I can put it in my own desert garden. I don't need it in an area where people have any [twisted] belief that I would harass folks- I do call things to the front I want answers when I almost died but 19 did...why put it in your area amongst other bricks or take the funds and ???...maybe take a serious look at who told you that and ask God what He thinks about it all---maybe the ones who told you have something possibly to hide from the Public at Large....and my truth telling bothers their paths of omissions...But weird to see it on my timeline...image below:

my backyard desert trails walking path:

the fledging doves:

<---Beautiful Backyard Blooms:

bright light happened in the sky...I will always wonder if this was the moment you passed on RR as TRH came to our home when I was in tub covered in seaweed the next day:

Mae West getting ready to dive off her chill out pad to swim:

fledging dove:

my backyard walking trails:


May 22:FENBEN PHASE TWO 2

Fenben off

RR DIED THIS WEEK --- unknown yet what day. We saw another Saturday as he filled his tanks with my water. We spoke Sunday so some time Sunday until the 22nd...Very sad moment. I should reach EPA about what RR said he saw over there in his area. His sister came over while I was in tub and told my hubby...I have no way to reach her, so I told the librarian and store manager to express my condolences and find out how to reach her.







I will miss all your life story sharing every week...

we were there for one another during our rough health journeys- he is/was the truest person, and I enjoyed hearing life stories that my father had with RR...


May 23:FENBEN PHASE TWO 3Fenben off

May 24:FENBEN PHASE TWO 4Fenben off Cole killed a lizard....Nick picked it up..

25:FENBEN PHASE TWO 5 Fenben off

May 26: Fenben off ...pets playing as I walk...

so swollen...so sad...I guess losing RR was like losing a piece of my father's life too...I enjoyed hearing about how RR knew my father...and sharing the gaps for my mother and their path.

Eyes are swelled up. Head pain.


walk walk walk

plunge plunge plunge

Mae West just chilling out in the pool





Mae's "Hey Ma, where's RR?" look...so very sad as she still waits every weekend by the door the time I would see RR at my home: Mae not only feels sad that her weekly pal passed on, but she looks it:


I didn't even want to do my exercises, but I did then crashed...legs are so weak...

May 27:Fenben off ...flying under radar again:

one of the surveillance cameras all of a sudden states wrong year and time-

worst head pain...my eyes are about swollen shut: well one was and the other almost:


May 28:Fenben off...doing my best to smile

May 29:Epsom Salt 48 hour detox...miss our guitar times, RR...

RiP- RR --- guitar memories ...




















hack attempt to my cell


30:


from our property- you can see the smoke at appx 7am.


71/89 accident.

Under the radar flight yet again...


under the radar---







I want to watch the ALAMO fire highway 93 near my home

I document all fires within a ten-mile radius of my home

which is alleged to be a vehicle fire turned vegetation fire

I had to laugh...vegetation--- that area is so desert...with vegetation of course but as I know being here for decades

it can run fast depends on weather but it burns itself out...why the resources...look forward to seeing who has jurisdiction on this






















it finally bloomed so soon this plant will die...



May 31:end of Phase Two...Mae still shows signs of missing RR...always looking at RR's areas he spent at our home.